Enough
Well it happened- I finally lost it in front of my poor husband, the doctors and nurses at the clinic. No one was hearing me. I can't take much more indecision or repetitive action only to end up back at the same place. I can't be the "good girl" the "strong girl. No one listens to her! Yep a full blown melt down just a few days after reassuring my psych doc I am doing fine- well not actually fine I told her but "I have hope things will improve". That's what I have lost, my hope. My neighbor was just told she has 3-4 months and I am angry. Why can't it be me I am asking God? I am ready to be out of here. Sure there have been blessings and precious moments in the last six months but there has also been so much pain and disappointment. I am tired of missing things , of breaking plans, of watching my life from my window like a fish in a bowl. I can't walk on the beach. I can't go see a movie, two simple quiet things I