Pain

 Lord on days like today with sharp pain in my body, I wonder where you are? Most people have one illness or injury to deal with and for me you keep allowing  more.



Yesterday was a beautiful day spent with my husband and on the island. Everything seemed perfect, but by the end of the day the pain in my hip/back started. I should look at yesterday as a gift I suppose but my desire is for many more days like that - many. Help my attitude Lord change my heart.

When I start to question why it gets me in trouble emotionally. My upbringing included the Catholic church which at that time, focused a lot on the sins and suffering from them. I only went to Catholic church until I was about 13 but some of those messages get ingrained in to your psyche so deep that I catch my self asking for your forgiveness Lord when I am in pain or having difficulty. The truth is I am already forgiven and the price for my sins is paid though the conversations of prayer with you are always healing there is no penance required on my part.

So why the pain? Purely physiological? Nerves being irritated by activity? Spine out of alignment? Where is the healing Lord? I am not a martyr and I do not take my pain as suffering for some greater good. I take it as a huge inconvenience and a disappointment following a good day. I am asking Father for healing from pain. Please give me the wisdom as to what I can do to stop it. This sharp pain is almost intolerable. I love you Lord and I trust you and I know that the pain today is just a blip on my life's radar but it is real. I need you Lord to heal my spine and alter this pain please Father.
Amen

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  1. UnknownApril 16, 2015 at 8:23 AM

    Lisa, sorry your beautiful day ended with so much pain. Last year when I was trying to come up with a name for my new blog my husband told me to read 2 Corinthians 12. As I got to verse 7 Paul tells how he has a "thorn in the flesh" and asked three times for it to be removed but God chose not to remove it. I think sometimes we have to deal with suffering and illness just because we are in a fallen world. I don't know God's reasoning for why some are healed and some are not. But I do know that either way, He wants us to show that our strength comes from Him and give Him the glory. I hope you start to see some relief very soon!

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    1. MauigirlApril 16, 2015 at 2:09 PM

      Yes that is it! Any strength I have comes from God. I medicated my night away and the muscle spasm is much less today.Sometimes that is what it takes :_(

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