Where are you Lord? The road ahead is not clear and it seems uphill. I haven't the energy to travel it alone. I am not even sure I can make it with you carrying me.
I am so exhausted and feel like I am inside a fish bowl watching life go on with out me. The doctors are overwhelmed by me how can I expect them not to be? My body is screaming from the inside. Yet if I were given a choice that I could be healed of pain or of exhaustion it would hands down be exhaustion. I can ignore the pain better if I am up and about or can I? I have persevered through all kinds of pain my whole life. Lord do I have to choose? Can it be both?
I look to you- Whitney Houston
I keep focusing on heaven. Is that a good thing? Am I missing something you have for me here? Or am I just missing the point entirely? Is it that I have something of value to give to someone else?
I used to tell my patients that nursing made me feel good. To take care of someone made me feel good.
I have seen so much physical pain and illness and yet I have seen the end and it is glorious. Patients with untouchable pain seeing you Lord in their last moments and peace enveloping their body muscles relaxing, pain gone forever. I know it will come. Today is just a hard day.
Even if the healing doesn't come-Kutless
Surrounding myself in song with your word.
You are faithful. I am weak. Hold me in your spirit today Lord. I know tomorrow the blessings will come. Help me get to tomorrow Lord. I surrender to you Lord. Amen.
Footprints in the Sand song- Leona Lewis
Nov 5 2015
As is usually the case in my life God has shown himself and I feel encouraged. I pray that God will reveal himself to you and bless you with encouragement also.