God is in it..........

What a year you have led me through Lord! Major move leaving loved ones and a life we knew for paradise and hopefully an opportunity to serve you and be healthier.
362 days later - I certainly have learned that no matter what, God is in it. I miss people but I do not miss Colorado. We have been blessed in so many ways with jobs,cars and places to live. There is less physical pain overall but this last year has been my sickest ever. It's almost as if everything that has been bottled up inside from stressful circumstances has oozed out of my body in the form of one infection or another or injury. My CMT has progressed a lot this year and I am starting to look realistically at the future. My faith has been pushed to the edge but it has been the one constant this last year.

I am thankful for my online support groups and for opportunities to help others. I am also thankful for the new people you have brought by way of blog, book or from my health care team. I have asked many of the same health questions for years and had to come here to get the answers!

I mourn the loss of old friends and people who have had an affect on my life and I am grateful for the deepening of some relationships in spite of the distance.

L.A.
Lord I am more sure of you now than ever before and I have learned that your will and my will can be vastly different. You have closed many doors that I was wanting to go through and made it clear it was you doing so.

 I have also come to terms with the difference between happiness and peace. Right now with some of my medical issues under control and many questions answered I am at finally at peace. I know that no matter where I am or end up, you are there Lord it's just that sometimes my flesh get's in the way and tries to divert my attention from you and your word. I have to remind myself that God is in it.

Hana
Father I am praying earnestly for your healing of my eyes. My life is already so solitary without my eyesight I would not have much desire to live in this world. I used to think physical pain was the worst that could plague me and before that emotional pain but now I truly value my vision and reading, looking at your tremendous creation and just not being afraid of falling so much more than I ever did.

Lord I want to serve you in writing this blog but it does take some of my spoons (energy) that could go toward other things. Please guide me how to proceed. If it is your will I am willing but if not once again close this door for me, but without losing my vision please. I hope I have grown enough that it doesn't take such a dramatic lesson to learn from you.
Kolo and the coconut- Sarah's beach

Father the world barrages us with "things" and messages we should have or be. None of that is from you. Your word convicts us but it always comforts, always encourages and your spirit brings us peace. Be with anyone tonight that has lost sight of you or turned away. Grab a hold of them tightly until the morning sunrise edges out the darkness and calms their heart. Show each of us how to serve you more and ourselves less. Father let tonight be one of forgiveness and letting go and renewing relationship with you. Help us find peace, your peace that supasses understanding. Amen!


If anyone is reading this blog now would be a good time to tell me.
God Bless and Happy New Year!

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  1. AnonymousJanuary 3, 2015 at 1:02 PM

    I try and stay caught up as often as possible <3 Hope it's not the last! Squeems

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  2. MauigirlJanuary 3, 2015 at 11:28 PM

    You are a sweet friend I know it may not be your cup of tea thanks for the comment. I am always behind on technology. When I got a pager people had cell phones. I got a home pc with dial up people had wireless. I am blogging and people are tweeting etc. I may still be behind the curve. xoxoxo

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